So I’ve Been Thinking…

I always start these out with something about it being too long since I started one of these, but does it count as a flaw if I point it out before they happen? Maybe. Maybe not. No rules here, folks.

My blog (if you can call it that) has been so dry recently that I was basically forced into another entry, therefore my dearest apologies if it fucking blows. I have a couple of thoughts in my head and I have very little room to keep them there, so here they are for whoever is listening.

I just turned 22 (weird) and I have come to the conclusion that I feel no better nor worse about the coming year than I have about any of the other 21. Now hold on, that isn’t supposed to be as sad as it seems. It’s not that I am hopeless, unmotivated, or putting it off, but a new year of life HAS to mean much more than what I accomplish during it. It just has to. So I am going into it as a completely clean slate. No marks, no lesson plans, nothing at all. This will either be great and a train wreck, so stay tuned people.

I want to make so much art in my life. I want to write, sing, draw terribly, dance, connect with other humans in a way most never get to experience through creating. There is no timeline to your life, only bullet points you make after events have happened. You don’t have to go to college (unless you want a good job, right parents). You don’t have to get married and have kids. You don’t necessarily have to be rich to be happy, although it doesn’t hurt, am I right? No one tells you how to live your own fucking life, and if they do, get rid of them. If someone is being negative towards you, you don’t have to keep them in your life. It’s just never going to be worth it if they are causing more pain than anything else. Where am I going with this? I don’t even know, I lost my way in the rhythm.

Anyways I’m on another trip around the sun, so that’s cool I guess. I would hate to waste my time doing all the wrong things so I’m going to create. Simple as that. Thanks to my parents for being super cool and letting me move away from them to try something that most people fail hard at. Everybody cross their fingers!

On a different, less scary note, I am giving myself a late New Year’s resolution. Except I don’t believe in those so I will call it a small dream of the year. I would like to sing songs for you. I will be the first one to tell you that they suck really bad, so hold your tongue asshole. The point is that they will be out there in the open for everyone and their mom to see. Especially my own mom, have I mentioned that she reads these things before? Can’t remember.

One more thing, if I see another fucking post about stupid bullshit on social media, I am taking back everything I said in the post and crawling into a hole for my 22nd year. Closed-minded idiots aren’t worth your time so stop wasting it on them. It is far too precious.

I’m not lying when I say this last part so listen up. Thank you so very much to everyone that somehow takes any amount of time out of their day to read these nonsense writings. I appreciate you more than words can express. I am giving every single one of you an extremely uncomfortable hug right now in my head and I will be the first one to say that it’s weird as hell and I already regret it.

TTYL, Stay Radical

Oh yeah, and don’t take shit from nobody. See you sooner than you prefer.